So I feel like my days are gettin closer..THIS DAMN ANTICIPATION is killin me..lol.. I'm tired of all my friends jinxing me talkin about twins or some shit..lol..no mam i jus need one at a time..I feel like i am down yo 10 donors, sounds like a lot but it was wayyy more than that before. I thank everyone for being so supportive of my process, even if i didn't have the support im very strong willed and mind is set so it's goin to take place regardless (all my haters) but its good to know people aren't so judgmental, or at least they're not voicing it to me..Thanks tho..Well going to read somemore profiles and narrow some off my list wanna make sure I'm ready when they give me the green light...

So I haven't forgot about yall and the process is still as scheduled just waiting on like maybe the 2nd week of Feb. Still up all night searching donors. Haven't given up. So ready to be a mother its pitiful. Touching lil hands and feet.. I get people every day sayin can they b my babys momma lol...what...but ik they jus playin..seems like everyone wants to be the god parents smh lol..but i can say that i have a lot of support. Welp off to work, i may not write again until the process starts back up.

So jus been busy counting down these days..Never been so ready for my first flow day but i cant wait to get inseminated and I'm hoping and praying it only takes one GOOD TIME. I already have names (Ik sad) but I'm keeping them a secret. I see myself looking at alot of baby shit like I'm already pregnant. At the same time trying not to get my hopes up just in case it doesn't go good but lord knows if aint nobody else got faith I DO. Still researching donors like crazy i want my baby to be tall. I know i aint tall lol so yea..lol.. Still no smokin i have been doin good real proud of myself. Stay tuned thoe peeps n also keep me in your prayers during this process.

Single now so less stress, Lord knows i was stressing..lol..Still feel a little alone but me going into this baby thing i was alone to begin with. I still have support from family and friends thoe so thats all i need. Read alot of stuff last night so thinkin about changing my diet so when i am inseminated my body will be strong enough to hold it and also make sure the baby is in a healthy place to live..Stopped smokein, which was hard so ik eating should b a breeze..Looked at more donors last night and i can say that its hard to choose. Lol. Mainly because of prices. Shipping ranges from $160-$300, thats the hard thing. I may have to take up donations soon jus just for the shipping, but I'm not giving up and I'm not letting ANYTHING/ANYONE get in the way of the process. If it seems like ur not onboard ✌

So today was suppose to be insemination day but Dr's got back to late yesterday wit my results so i have to wait till next month. I was a lil discouraged due to the fact that im jus READY..lol.. I feel like it was my time right now and maybe because i should b makin the right decision on my donor or maybe jus getting my money together so when i do buy my "Specimen" i am straight. Because this shit is expensive lol.. I can say i have alot of support so i am happt about that. So jus waiting now i feel like a kid waiting on Christmas. Idk why most people thought i was playing around about this but this is real yall i want my mini me. I'll be damned jus because society feels like i should b in a dress, with nails, and long hair and with a MAN (YUCK) that thats what i gotta be..well I'm bout to switch it up for yall and show yall a LESBIAN STUD who wears jeans, j's, and a t shirt wit dreds can do the samr thang hell prolly take care of mine better than most..WATCH ME WORK

I was so ready today to get this process going..Looks like i have to wait till next month. Waited all day 4 blood work for them to tell me at 3 (had to b at work at 3:30) to tell me im ovulating but i need specimen by tomorrow. I dont have time at this point to get anything overnighted..Im sooo mad right now and almost got discouraged but then thought to myself maybe i need to look more and actually research these donors more, and get more money saved.. I cant lie thoe i was discouraged but at least i still got good news and not bad.. I am in my feelings i can't lie..

So back at it again today. Sometimes i feel like this time in the morning is WAY to early but for this i seem to wake up with no problems. Another ultrasound and also taking more blood. Im hoping that today they tell me to buy my specimen. I have narrowed it down to 3, and none of them are black but they are tall..lol.. Pictures of them are not a must because hell I'm sexy and we have strong genes. If I'm  on schedule then this week is the week. Jus excited and friends and family are as well..Welp next time i visit this Dr office lets hope its to make a baby

So today is nerve wrecking..Im so excited for tomorrow but its gonna be nerve wreckin. If everything is grear that means i have to buy my specimen tomorrow to have it shipped to get inseminated hopefully by the end of the week..So excite a n d alot of people ask me what will u wear..lol..clothes bitch..but yea im a full stud to the core no blouses and shit like that byt excited to carry something thatd MINE in my stomach so ready and nervous at the same time

Went to get prenatal vitamins with my gf today felt like i aint know what i was lookin for..lol..so still searching for a sperm donor.This shit is expensive but i want my lil one so i gotta spend for him/her..Sperm is gonna be the most costly for me it could range between 400-900.