So ik everyone's been wondering what's goin on. I've been goin thru the motion not really lettin anything get to me. I have been very gassy. Lol i dont think thas anything to do with anything..smells have been extreme for me lol..I'm tryin not to think of every lil thing as pregnancy symptoms..idk but i wanna take a test..but wont.lol..but yall stay tuned

Today was kinda painful smh.. That damn speculum was no fuckin joke..OMG.. They had to reposition it twice, felt like i was gettin shit removed lol. Its over now I'm crossing my fingers, toes, shoelaces, and anything else i can cross. I'm CLAIMING this is the one.. I'm crampin so freakin bad right now feel like the women off of Im Gon Get You Sucka (B4 some of yall time) lol.. These cramps aint no joke thoe. Wish i had a baby momma to rub my stomach ease some of these cramps lol, but I'm a big girl so I'm good. Yall keep US in ur prayers continue to throw baby dust my way. Bout to pass out in this bed

Jus video of how specimen looks and what they use to inject me with

So I'm here ready for insemination (iui). prayin this goes well and it takes.. Going to be takin it easy today. May see if i can get a lil video today we will c

O M G I have been knocked out waiting on them to call me back. Finally got my call but was hoping for today but they are scheduling me for tomorrow morning at 10am. I so dont wanna be at work after insemination. o well it is what it is. Yayyyy tomorrow is my big day so after tomorrow we have that 2week wait AGAIN.. This time it will be fine thoe, still nerve racking but not as much as cycle 1.. Well everybody here goes nothin

So I'm at a 19mm which is fabulous..So now waiting on blood work.. I feel like jeopardy music is playin in my head.. I hate waiting uugghhh but its cool i jus hope they can do it today cause i dont wanna have to rush in the A.M. then have to go into work.

Up early this morning dropped my car off to get oil changed and tires rotated. About to go to Dr's office hoping today is a good day because I'm off today couldn't take off Friday and i wanted to rest if i am getting inseminated. I have really been having A LOT of dreams or should i say visions or even scenarios about what type of mother i would be. How i would handle situations as a mother. Weird ik. Lol. I'm so ready for this process not so excited about the BIRTH thing but I'm positive that it is worth it. I have alot of people still hung up on the fact that i am even doin this..lol.. If u know me and i mean REALLY KNOW ME. You can see that i LLLOOOOOVVVEEEE kids. I spoil my nieces rotten when i am around them even other people's kids, I'm jus good around kids. And i wanna spoil and do all that i do with my own..Well enough of me yappin away, yall jus cross ur fingers and throw that baby dust today. Also dont forget to pray for me/US as well

Got my call, want me to c poo me back in Thursday to see my progression. So they say Thursday or Friday is my day for insemination..If i don't do it Thursday then i will have to get a trigger shot to get it done Friday..Either way i will be gettin it done this week..YAYYYYY... So HOPEFULLY this time is my time

So Dr's appointment went well. Specimen is here as of yesterday.. So I'm at 15mm in right ovary so waiting on blood test to say uts a go for insemination OR they may make me do the trigger shot to boost up the maturity of the follicles. So i should get a call back she said around noon so now the waiting game off today so i am gonna take a nap and rest until then. I know i cant give myself this trigger shot so i may need some help..Any takers? Lol.. I may put that on video. Wondering if i should stay video sharing now lol..what yall think? I already know the answer :) yall stay tuned

Back at it again this morning getting ready for Dr's appointment. Time to see if I'm ovulating so I can get shot up again.lol. Sounds weird ik. Specimen arrived yesterday went with same donor. Hopefully this second time is the charm. I amaze myself everyday that i am doing this. I actually stopped alot to get to where i am so i pat MYSELF on the back sometimes. I really want this despite anyones approval or what people may think about my situation i want this more and more everyday so ik God is going to bless me. Well yall stay tuned let you all know what Doc says today

Got another appointment to see bout ovulation Tuesday, was told to have specimen by Monday. I ended up just going with the same donor. My mind has already been on what i think he/she may look like. So yea I'm set. Still on these prenatals and also heard a few other things I can try to do this go round so I may try em. I also heard people be out there talking bout this blog IN A GOOD WAY. Well I'm glad this is some people's cup of tea in the morning..lol.. Share it with ur friends or whoever hell I'm tryin to go VIRAL if i can. But i thank yall for following and WHEN i get preggo there will be less writing on here..lol...dont be sad its jus gon b the start of video blogging plus a lil writing.. A more enhanced experience..But stay tuned and as i mentioned before when I get ANY news this blog will have it.

Okay so like i figured it didnt take this time idk why my cycle was the way it was. Dr left me a message saying to have another specimen. So they want me to have specimen in the 16th just in case they do it i n the 17th. Thinkin if i should use dame donor or not..lol.. But yall dont be disappointed because I'm definitely not. So ifs gon happen and i think this time will be,my time. Came in to this knowing it may or may not take..So now decisions on donor or change donor..Thanks for the support and keep me in your prayers and all u other pregnant women and mothers continue to throw that baby dust

So finally talked to my Dr's office today and they have me scheduled to go in tomorrow morning at 8 to do blood work and ultrasound. Most people think I'm stressing but I'm actually not i have been in the best head space i can possibly be in..lol.. I dont even worry bout the baby thing because ik i will have it when HE wants me to have it. Im so ready to have a big belly and shop 4 clothes lol. But still continue to pray and throw ur baby dust

So this may be to much TMI for most but I'm very confused. I'm 31 as most of you know (yea ik i look young) and my monthly nature visits have always been 4 FULL DAYS. So i came on Friday afternoon and and now sunday damn near NOTHING.. To me that shit aint normal have yall (women viewers) had anything like this cause i basically only was on for a day and a half with my calculations maybe 2 days tops.. I am definitely weirded OUT

So its a no go for this month yall still continue to pray 4 me..Mother Nature said fuck yall I'm here today lmfao.. So no disappointment here I'm still positive. I knew it may not take on the first round di me and my emotions were prepared

So i know everyone is wondering..Well i actually have been takin test for the past 3 days all NEGATIVE.. I also have had cramps for past 2 days and missed my period as well. Last night i thought it was over because i started spottin but it was brownish. Put a pad on as normal butcwoke up NOTHING was happening and still jus spotting. Have a friend that i text constantly lol ik i get on her nerves. But SOMETIMES when implantation is takin place you will cramp (last 2 days), and u will have light brownish spotting as well (since last night). So they say if that takes place it may take a week to show up in urine doesn't make it any better that my Dr is closed today but they can find out by doin blood work. So I'm not stressing either way becase we all knew it may or may not take the first time. But i have A LOT OF FAITH and fingers are still crossed because i definitely missed my period

So we got 4 more days yall. Yall jus cant imagine the things I've been doing to keep my mind off of this..lol.. I was tempted to take one last night but my black stallion friend Keisha talked me out of it..lol. I try not to think about how my body is feeling, I do feel some changes but then again i dont get worked up about them because it could be in my head. Thanks to everyone as well because i haven't been gettin the questions either..Thanks for the support from everyone as well